Morning dew on the field where I met you

Thu, 08 Apr 2004 22:35:48 GMT

NEW JOURNAL IS MADE.

ADD YOURSELVES YOU SILLY PEOPLE

SEALTHEMIDNIGHT IS THE NAME

NOW SHUT UP AND DON'T DO ANYTHING ELSE UNTIL YOU ADD ME...

Sat, 03 Jan 2004 21:17:55 GMT

My loves...

I didn't want it to come to this but it has. I am making my journal friends only. I am only making it friends only because I don't want my sister reading it. I don't really care about the rest of you. Comment here if I don't have you added and you will be surely.

I love you all.

Sat, 03 Jan 2004 05:50:08 GMT

Aww, how cute. I look horrible, and Katey is the best.

Rey landing on Plymouth Rock.

Scary shit.

Haha. never gets old...

Now I will tell you a bit of what I have been doing since yesterday.

Yesterday Leah, Jess, and Melissa came over. We drove places looking for people and found Rey and Nelson at Funworld. Surprise surprise. After we went and picked up a few of Jess' friends and we hung out. They were cool. I mooned them all goodbye and went out with Wayne and Sean.

Today Wayne, Rey, and Katey got me and we hung out with Kyle. It was a lot of fun. there was a lot of humping going on. After we went and hung out with Sean. We drove into a woodsy area and we were shutting off all the car lights to freak out Rey. It was cool.

Now I am sitting here. Hopefully tomorrow will be a lot of fun. I need to go nuts and finish off this vacation with something great. Maybe hanging out with Kristen tomorrow at night..and maybe practice if Rey and Leo are speaking. If not maybe we'll hang out at Kyle's for awhile.

Well, I am done. Comment away..if you want.

Now go fuck yourselves. You know, the usual.

I love you all, as usual.

Goodbye, as usual.

Fri, 02 Jan 2004 06:01:18 GMT

Well people..

Welcome again.

Tonight I have some pictures for you. These are all of our New Years Eve fun.

We took these pictures as a joke. None of us drink and we are all straight edge. We just had fun taking some pictures of us pretending to be drunk.

Here goes..

Rey.

"Your life or the chips"..."THE CHIPS THE CHIPS!!"

Heh heh.

Poor Joe. I love it.

The End.

Well, that was our New Years Eve.

We were sober all night. We just took the beer out to pose with. We are losers and I love it. It was a lot of fun..

I slept from 5am to 11 am..it was interesting.

Well friends, I am leaving you now.

Comment you fools.

Bye.

Thu, 01 Jan 2004 19:07:46 GMT

My thoughts are all blurred at the moment. Last night was a lot of fun, if I do say so myself. Let me explain..

The night began with us going to Courtney's. (again) It was alright, besides the fact that we were all alone in her house in one room while everyone mingled in the other room. I guess we just aren't that thrilling to be around, which I can understand. So we ended that abruptly as we could have sat in one room and talked to eachother anywhere else. We headed to Sean's where we awaited the ending of his "Family time." They kicked us out eventually and we headed to Wayne's. Noone was home at his house so of course all hell broke loose. We took a lot of good pictures and I am much too tired to put them on. We brought in the New Year this year by all attacking Rey and humping Wayne's dog Joe. Me and Kyle were up until 5ish plotting against Rey and throwing stuff at him. Oh, and I can't forget the Wesley Willis DVD we watched. That was beautiful, and a bit sad at times.

"Hey wats up nuttin juss chillin here. sorry wayne i was talkin to nina and writing emails. i also ate your kit kats and your reeses."

My New Years Resolution?

And remember, don't quote me on this. I may not fall true to some of this, it depends.

First I vow to drive my dad even harder to get us out of this hell. I am going to promise myself that I will find a love before I go insane. That one is far out of my grasps, unfortunately. I'm going to try even harder with the band and try to get us somewhere. Afterall, the band will provide me with a life that could be worth living. The same goes with a love. I also resolve that I will hold myself from destroying any of you that bring me pain of any kind. As much relief that would bring to my mind, you shall all live! How kind of me, don't you think? I'm just messing around, kind of.

None of my past matters right now. It hasn't gotten me anywhere, so why should it? The only thing that matters right now is the band, and someday I will have a girlfriend that will take a big chunk of the importance in my life. That would make all these entries happy, wouldn't that be a change from the dull drear that I ensnare you with here?

This vacation has gotten me nowhere that I wanted to end up. I can't believe it will be soon coming to a screeching halt and I will be imprisoned in the walls of school again.

I hate a lot of people. Is it my fault? Some people just bring it on themselves, the bastards.

Well folks, I'm gone. I am so tired right now and I'm probably going out with my loves soon.

But remember..

Fuck yourselves.

and...I love you. All of you.

Wed, 31 Dec 2003 06:58:52 GMT

Today we went to a party. It was alright, although we went unnoticed most of the time. We are very immature and since we don't lay back and drink and smoke, we suck. We also lack the necessary vocabulary which includes words like: Yo, son, nigga, whack, shiz, ho, fortie, blunt. etc. I felt like such a fool for even being their all that time. Obviously we were out of place ( Atleast I was) I think Kyle definitly also felt out of place. We also lack the age of 5 years old. That is also necessary to be cool. That girl Jackie seemed cool. She commented on my journal which totally took me back. I figured she would get away from us as quickly as she could. The other girls were alright. They didn't seem to pleased with our presence. Kristen was distant, Courtney was too cool for us, and those guys were quiet, which kept me pleased.

I miss Muffles, Scorpo, and Duh.

Good dogs.

Afterwards we left and went to Wayne's and hung out for a bit. Then we ventured forth into the vast world of fast food. On the way we waged a battle no mortal would get in the way of. The war of the asses in cars on the highway. I mooned Wayne's car from Sean's. I also showed 'em my cack. That is the only time I will ever flash my wang. From a speeding vehicle while too far away to make out anything.

Today was pretty good, although I felt uncomfortable about a few things.

Tomorrow will be good, I guess. New Years Eve shit. I'm not positive what we're doing, but I know we got an invite to someone's house. We will probably just go their, although I don't think that person appreciates our presence.

I hate myself for writing all of that. Things will brighten, I'm sure.

Go fuck yourselves, and remember..

I love you all.

Tue, 30 Dec 2003 05:04:09 GMT

I feel like killing something about now.

I got home in a not so bad mood, but now I am in a terrible one.

It's mostly because my family sucks, but there are other reasons.

I guess I can't use the credit card I have online.

That makes me pretty mad.

People have seemingly lost the interest to comment on my journal.

I understand.

I am supposed to go to a party tomorrow, but I am not sure if I am even wanted their. I am not going unless I'm sure they want me their. If I don't hear so I'm not going to show up. I will not make people endure my plague, unless it is with their consent.

Tonight was kind of worthless.

I went to the mall with Rey and Kyle and I got pants and two CDs

I bought a Nightwish CD and the Killswitch Engage CD

We had Sean pick us up after and pretty much did nothing. We just drove around and tried to amuse eachother.

I hope things that have happened weren't just worthless. I need some more meaning to my life then that which it has now. I fear that the worst will come and I will again be left in despair. I can just hope that something may come and put me out of my misery and into some good, new, misery. Am I going to be saved, or will I be just left facedown in my tragedy?

In other words...

DON'T LEAVE ME HERE BURGLECUT!

Thursday we are supposedly going to get our name band name registered.

Nothing is for sure.

I refuse to rise late tomorrow. For the past few nights I have gone to bed extremely late and risen extremely late. I hate waking up at like 1, It feels like such a waste of a day.

Thus far, this vacation started off with cheer and now it is being snagged by gloom. I hope I can untangle myself.

I hate my family right now.

I hate a lot of things right now.

I hate being alone, always.

I hate myself.

I hate the worthlessness that I live everyday.

I hate waiting.

This hate is mostly temporary.

Not all of it, though.

It feels good to bitch.

I try not to do it too often..

I'm sorry.

I'm done, everyone have fun not reading this.

Comment, or don't comment. It is your choice.

I am going now.

Goodbye

Mon, 29 Dec 2003 08:14:20 GMT

Without you
The poetry within me is dead

Sun, 28 Dec 2003 19:37:11 GMT

Welcome once again to the journal that nobody reads.

Over the past two days I have had a good time..

Here are some reasons why

Ah, yes. The destruction of the Cat Army

Me being bent over my Courtney. She has a huge wang.

Rey and Kyle double teaming Sean.

Rey and Kyle on Sean again. God they look like they're having fun.

Those are just a few of many pictures from the past two nights..

Ask me to see the rest if you want..

Here is our practice from yesterday

Ah, yes.

What a lucky guy.

We're wicked tough! Don't let the stuffed animals fool you!

That is all..

What do you think?

Comment on this..I want to know your reactions.

Hopefully we have practice today.

Goodbye

Sun, 28 Dec 2003 09:01:38 GMT

Well, my dear friends...

Today, yet again was beautiful.

I got up and shortly after I found out we could have practice.

Nelson picked me up and we went down to Leo's Aunt's (although Leo wasn't going)

We had practice, it went alright. We just need to practice more and build our endurance like Kyle says.

We took some nice band pictures.

After Kyle got his swords and we were off to Kristen's where we stayed until about 3:30am.

Well, I lied, we did go driving randomly to the woods.

It was a tad pointless, but kind of creepy.

I could just sit at Kristen's and be satisfied..

Well, depends.

We laughed a lot, and I tried my hardest to be pissed off.

I just can't get pissed off with that group of people.

Yes, I still have pictures to post, but I have been gone ALL day today, and I am too tired to post them, let alone make an entry.

Courtney is cool, although she wouldn't get her picture taken with me. I know she doesn't want it to get out that she hangs out with a fool like me.

I understand.

Kristen makes me smile.

Sean makes me protect my privates.

Wayne makes me laugh.

Rey makes me wish I was big.

Kyle makes me want to whack off.

Alright, enough of this nonsense.

I love you all, for the past two days I have been actually happy. I don't understand it. Well, maybe I do.

Well, I'm gonna eat now. Then I will sleep.

Comment if it pleases you.

Balleeted.

Goodbye

Sat, 27 Dec 2003 07:42:26 GMT

Wow, how cool and random.

I almost just choked to death.

It was pretty.

So anyway...fuck...I really would rather not write about my Christmas..it will make this entry so long..but..like the loser I am..I'll type it.

So I wake up Christmas...get like a million scratch tickets in my stocking...and I only won like..4 bucks.

My dad got me...

Blank cds
A cd case
A sweatshirt
A hat
100 dollar visa card thing
and, my digital camera.

My mom gave me..

Mario Kart
Cradle of Filth shirt
Black pants
Bod for men
3 free movie passes
and a random 25 bucks.

My Aunt gave me..

Another hat
A wallet
and a random 80 dollars.

I have three hats now..and I need four more..so I have one for every day of the week.

My grandfather sent me and my sister a precious letter.

It said..

Sorry kids no money this year. Tell your dad to give you 100 dollars each, Since he owes me 9000 dollars. I need fake teeth to chew my food. Merry Christmas.

Haht huh?

I thought so.

No skin off my balls.

So let's get into the adventures that proceded tonight.

Sean picked me and Kyle up, after me and Kyle endured some intense Mario Kart playing. Kristen and Sam are in the car, to my surprise. We proceded to drive to the mall so we could all spend our precious Christmas money. We met up with Nelson and Rey their. Also we saw Katey and Wayne. It was a lot of fun, but hard to keep the whole group together at one time. I bought Star Wars Rebel Strike. I haven't had the delight of playing that sweet thing yet, sadly. After all of our mall adventures fizzle out we go with Nelson to try to get a katana for Kyle at Headlines. They were closed, bastards.

Afterwards we went to Rey's where we watched a bit of DDR playing, and then we were off again.

We headed to Kristen's for more adventures. Courtney was their now. I took a lot of pictures of everyone flipping out. Kyle destroying one member of the cat army. I have a nice picture of Courtney bending me over. Gahd she's got a big cack. Little sparks of drama were here and their, but nothing too big. It was so much fun. I had forgotten the good times their, although a lot of it I admit I don't miss. Kyle went home early and the games continued on until almost 2. I would have slept over, but her brother was home, and he would have killed me. Plus the fact that Courtney might have raped me, but is that a bad thing afterall, folks? Heehheeh, I'm just yanking yer balls. I will post all the pictures from the night probably tomorrow night.

I really did have fun tonight, guys. I love you all.

I love Kristen's home when her mom isn't home...god that woman terrifies me.

Gah, it sucks being home, I wish I had slept out.

Tomorrow we might have practice and Katey might attend. Joy.

One of these days this week we might be driving down to Mass to register our band name. This is just so that noone else can claim it theirs and we don't have to worry about that nonsense.

Well, my dear friends. I must be leaving now. Not to sleep, but to finish talking to people and play some good ol' rogue squadron.

I love you guys.

Goodbye.

Fri, 26 Dec 2003 05:26:35 GMT

Welcome welcome..

This will be my most infamous entry yet..

This is all thanks to Katey

She is the best and I want to have her babies.

Be prepared for some scary pictures..

GO!

^Nelson, the singer in my band. He decided to get all dressed up for Christmas Eve

Reymundo strong like bull! He also decided to make himself up.

So..we decide to go out with my new camera and reek havoc.

We walk down my street and go picture crazy.

That is what I call HAHT!

Them being creepy and such.

Random sewer thing.

We're attracting customers to 7/11...I don't think it's working..

The true meaning of the holidays.

Rey looks like he's ready to tackle me.

MOUNTAIN TROLL!!!!!

Yea, well..you'd be scared too!

Errr..........BUSH TROLL!!!

Rey like you've never seen him.

Me tripping, like a fag. Perty boxers, eh?

Ok...if you have an uneasy stomach...please don't look at the next picture.

I really don't mean to offend anyone by this picture..it is just funny as shit..

Ah fuck it just look at it.

Rey rubbing his nipple..

Take a deep breath..it's all over now.

You will be seeing a lot more of this in the future..pictures and such.

I will type another entry about my Christmas tomorrow..

Have a good fucking night!

Goodbye.

Thu, 25 Dec 2003 06:41:52 GMT

Well, people.

I was going to update a ton of pictures..but I couldn't figure it out..anyone wanna help? I'd be grateful forever.

Yes, I got my camera if you hadn't noticed by my new icon.

I asked my dad to give it to me early.

Tomorrow, although I will be receiving many gifts, will be shit.

I have to go to my mom's at 3ish..and her boyfriends kids will be their..it's gonna suck.

But I can't get out of it unfortunately.

Christmas is nothing to me this year.

I usually am cheerful and not bad with my holiday spiritness.

But not this year.

I will probably sleep in late tomorrow.. spite the fact that I have presents awaiting me.

I probably won't be able to do anything tomorrow...

But, who knows..

I figured I wouldn't do anything Christmas Eve..and I was out until like 12.

Nelson and Rey came over..and we walked around and took a lot of pictures..no really..we took like 60 pictures.

I will post them tomorrow I should think.

After this plague of a holiday is over.

I must thank Jill here for my Blink 182 patches.

That was very kind of you.

Afterall, they are my favorite band :)

We have a boa constrictor in my house..my dad is holding it for a friend..his friend is giving it to his girlfriend for Christmas. His friend is Rey, might I add. Not literally, just in size.

We stopped by Kyle's tonight..Kyle didn't seem too happy today..well atleast earlier..he seemed better when I saw him tonight.

I don't know what that meannssss

You still smell like pea souppp

All I want for Christmas is you to end.

Make my holiday wishes come true, santa nigga.

Hehehehehe

I'm just kidding, mother fuckers.

Well, everyone try to survive this hell..

A full day with our families tomorrow..

How painful.

Well, look tomorrow night for the mass of pictures maybe.

You will not be let down..unless of course I can't figure it out by then.

But comment babies.

You know I love all of you.

Now get out!!

Unless you're going to comment. :)

Wed, 24 Dec 2003 05:17:47 GMT

Hello.

I had a good day today.

I didn't go to school. Yes you heard me!!!

I slept until 1:30..like the loser I am.

I got picked up by Kyle's mom at like 3:30ish..

We went to Rey's..

Hung out their for a bit.

Kyle went to his driving hour..

and I watched some Tyngsburrah Wrastlin'

He came back with Leah, Krystle, and her boyfriend.

We went to get some pizza..

I felt kinda unwanted..so I decided that me and Rey would walk back to his house.

We were third wheels afterall.

I know we were for a fact, don't tell me otherwise.

We went to his house...called up Sean..he came to get us..to my surprise Kyle and them were back.

Kyle wanted us to come with him and play Monopoly.

But come on...I know the rest of the group must have been against him.

Sorry Kyle.

Me and Rey went with Sean..

We went to the mall...caused hell..

The usual.

Bunch of idiots their.

One idiot I mooned in particular.

I told him I would moon him again.

I would moon him until my ass grew numb.

Idiot.

Sorry loves..I don't usually not like people.

Sorry if I sound like a meanie face.

ack.

But anyway..

We left the mall..

Got a call from Wayne.

We met him at my Motel.

We hung out and watched Strong Bad for a bit.

We left to eat..

Saw some cool interesting people.

That's all I will say.

besides..

WHAAAAAAAAAAAT!!!!!!?!?!?!?!?!

Blahtt!!!

Ok...I'm done.

HESSHRRAPPINGGMEEEEE!!!!!!

Seriously, I'll stop.

What's this I hear about you and.....a forklift?

CASEYY!!!!!!!!!

Ok all done now.

So now I am home.

Tomorrow is Christmas Eve.

I'm supposed to make a call.

But why should I?

I don't think I will.

I'm sick of calling.

So anyway..

Shut it up you...

Shut it up me..

Maybe practice tomorrow, haha.

I hope we do.

Wheewwwww I need a girlfriend.

Hehe..Sean and I discussed our need of girlfriends in his car.

Miss I'm too lazy to give you directions to my house sucks.

Friday is too late!!!!

Can't wait that long nigshit.

Sean and Wayne know.

CAMERAAAAAAAAA!!!

I'm so psyched.

About a fucking camera..I'm an idiot.

But I love it.

Vacation finally.

I hope it brings something good..

Some new beginning.

I'm definitly ready.

Alright, I'm getting the hell out of here.

Leave a comment or perish.

...Ok..how about just leave a comment.

Please?

hehehehe

I won't beg.

PLEASEEEEEEE LEAVE A COMMENTTTTTTTTTTT!!!!!!!

...I'm a fucking LOSEERRRRRRRRRRR

YES!!!!

Hatred is a weakness.

I'm so weak!!!!!!

Heheheheheehe mother fuckeerrr.

Goodbye.

Tue, 23 Dec 2003 01:21:11 GMT

Ah, mother fuckers.

I appreciate your inputs on my past entry.

I admit I was way out of line.

I let my emotions take advantage of me at times.

I just got home from "shopping" with Sean's mom, Sean, and Wayne.

Aka I watched.

It was alright.

I am not going to school tomorrow...no matter what it takes.

Totally pointless..I need rest anyway..

I slept last night from...

3-6am

3 hours of sleep...although it gives you a funny lightheaded feeling to be totaly deprived of sleep...it still sucks.

My vacation is here.

Practice tomorrow.

I guess we're gonna record some Christmas songs and give it to our parents for Christmas?

Not a bad idea..a bit corny..but cheap.

Christmas approaches. Ack.

My camera...mmm

I can't wait for that..

It takes clips..

and has a 3x zoom thing..or something..

It's nice.

I need to take a stress relieving shower :)

Blast some music..and flip out to it in the shower.

So nice.

Yes, I am a fucking loser.

So SHUT UP

I hear Kyle isn't going to school tomorrow..

I hear Leo isn't either..

I hear Nelson isn't either..

Leo told me that if we all stayed home we could have practice..and Nelson said he would drive...that would be too precious.

But Reymundo is going to school.

To "see people"

Or something.

Bah fucking humbug to that.

I'll see them all dead in my dreams anyway. :)

Well, I'm going to go..

I will bore you with my tragedies later.

Now get out.

Mon, 22 Dec 2003 03:28:33 GMT

I am a fool.

Any pain I feel is my own fault, I know.

A little sad to be alone around the holidays..

I always am though..

I haven't had a girlfriend around the holidays for about two years.

The crushing one is Valentines day though..

That is definitly the worst.

Will I be alone this Valentines?

Who knows..probably? Maybe?

I hate not having a girlfriend.

I hate being lead by untruths.

I will NOT let this happen again.

Mark my mother fucking words.

I am a mix of depressed/angry

I don't want any of your sympathy

Just want you bastards to hear me out, ya?

Kyle, Rey, Nelson, Wayne, Sean, Leah..

You guys are my loves..and you keep me breathing.

I am sick of being such a fucking pushover

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Don't worry about it folks.

Tomorrow I will be happy, I'm sure.

Well, not happy..but not as dead.

It is the night when you have time to think. Night is when you reminisce on what has happened..and when you have time to get depressed. That is why I fear going to bed..because when I lay down I think..which makes it all come crashing down.

I am a fucking idiot.

Fuck yourself Chris!

WOOOO!!

MOTHAA FUCKAAAAA

I am so dramatic.

Suck my titties you fucking shits.

Some day.

I promise! I will write of happy things..

Someday I will feel no pain!

I will skip and gallop around in glee!

When I skip and gallop..you will know I have found love!

In time.

I am going to go..I will be avoiding bed as long as possible tonight.

What do you feel people?

Do you not like it when I bitch?

Come on....I try not to..

I just have to once in awhile..or else I'll explode.

I need to destroy something.

Alright..I'm out of here

Fuck yourselves, my loves.

Sun, 21 Dec 2003 18:59:32 GMT

Yea yea..

I didn't update yesterday..just didn't feel I had anything to update about.

Yesterday was slow and dreary.

Leo managed to avoid us having practice once more.

So I sat..and waited all day in case we could have practice.

We did not.

Yesterday I didn't go out until 9:20ish at night.

Wayne came and picked me up..and we drove to Sean's.

Sean's dad was being...himself.

I am kicked out of Sean's house for awhile because I smell like smoke because of my family and because I was wearing a shirt with a swear on it.

I know..wonderful reasoning.

Whatever, I don't care really..I won't go their anymore..but I'm not changing my wardrobe for a visit to a friends house. Understandable how it's particularly my fault for smelling like smoke. I get shit for being the only one in my family who doesn't smoke. How encouraging.

So afer that we drove down to Kristen's. We sat in the car for awhile..and then went off to eat. Drama erupted randomly..I don't know exactly about what..nor will I dwell on it in my journal.

Kristen Paid for all of our food.

She deserves thanks for that..I'll pay you back if you wish..I had the money to pay for myself on me.

Pretty much all my night consisted of was listening to Bodom and just randomly driving around.

It was stil fun.

I don't even want to know what went on on that backseat..(shudders)

Oh yea, I talked to someone not reachable by phone by me..but reachable by everyone else.

Interesting.

Supposedly exchanging gifts with that person tonight.

Doubtful..if I remember past experiences..

I will not get my hopes up.

....My love is gone..(tears)

For once I am parted with my hat..

It is truly sad.

And all I have is this pink thing to rest in it's place.

Although I was told pink does suit me well. :)

I want my hat back MONDAY!!!!!

I don't think I'll attend school Tuesday.

A tad pointless if you ask me..

I dunno though..whaddya guys think?

Should I go?

I will listen to you..afterall..you are my loves.

Sunday..fuck.

School tomorrow damnit.

Oh well..could be my last day before all vacation hell breaks loose.

This vacation better be cool.

I know what could make it cool. Hehehehee.

Leah is trying to help me with that. Considering I suck.

Digital fucking camera!!!!

Who wants to be in my first picture porn?

I understand.

I don't know why I use all my strength to continue to forge together bonds that are ready to fail...when I could be using that to forge new bonds.

It is not my fault they're ready to fail..I promise.

I need a job..NOW.

I also need my cellphone..NOW

The band is not doing too well..

We don't have practice often enough at all..

Now that Kyle is out of Drivers Ed and we can have it all together other things screw it up.

I really would have loved to be ready for the January battle of the bands..but I don't see it happening..unless without Nelson..I would love to see all of your pretty faces in the crowd..I would fucking cream.

As shy as I am I <3 (heheheeh) having people watch us play.

Fuck yourselves niggas.

I love you.

Sing me a song of your beauty..
Of your kingdom..

....

...

" And I threw him in the Bush and I raped him!"

"ahhhh he'shhrappingmeeee.......He'shhrapingme...!!"

"So ****, What's this I hear about you and...A forklift?"

"Haha, I'm gonna whack off"

"Ahhh It's ****...CASEY!"

Hahahah.....Only..4 people know what that is about.

Wayne,Sean,Kyle..and maybe Rey.

I love it.

Ok I'm done boring you..

Comment or else....****'s gonna getcha!

I love you fuckers..I would do you all if I could.

Especially when you comment.

Ok, maybe not.

Just comment and I will show you the naked respect you deserve.

Goodbye.

Sat, 20 Dec 2003 06:13:13 GMT

A glorious night.

Finally Friday..

Tonight..I headed to the mall..in hopes of buying a gift.

And in hopes of making a fool of myself.

I succeeded..and I loved it.

First..I am going to announce the guest list..

All these people were at the mall.

Sean's mom
Jill Miller
Joey
Kaylee
Adam
Kristen
Becka
Rey
Kyle
Sarah
Stacy
Leah
Mike Sullivan
Brandon Peters
Tara(h)

So many friggin people I knew..it was crazy..

Although I did not hang out with them all..

Most of the malling time was with

Kyle,me,Rey, Leah, and Tara(h)

All those other people were their and randomly stopped in with us for a bit...well..besides a few.

I got my gift..with the help of Leah and Tara(h)

I am thankful.

Nelson arrived afterwork..

and we were leaving..and decided to stop into Abercrombie for a bit of dancing.

We all started randomly breakdancing on the main floor and the lady said..don't do that..or something..I don't remember..it was funny though.

Me and Kyle had done it earlier..by our lonesomes without Nelson's help..we were randomly dancing

Mall was crazy..better then anytime their in so long.

It was because of the vast amounts of people,I'm sure.

Well we left and got dropped off at funworld..

Where all hell broke loose once again.

Me and Kyle headed straight for The Lost World shooting game..and we battled vicious Rey's...I mean..Dinosaurs.

Night went on..

On the way out..with 5 tokens left..we decided we should face our greatest threat to come..

To alone take on the cat army..

Me and Kyle swallowed our fears..

And marched to the battlefield.

We picked our ammunition..

put in our tokens..

and the fight began!

Our bullets whizzed by in plentiful colors..

As we received the enemies counter blows

In the end..we were victorious!

We received treasures beyond any imagination

We have these treasures as proof!

Ask us..we will show!

......

.....

...Ok we were really just playing that game where you throw the balls into the trash cans with the cats in them..

and our treasure was tickets..

But still..we did whip those cats asses..

Nelson has a video to prove it..well..I actually don't know whose camera that was.

Now I am home..

Wondering what will come tomorrow.

I hope we can have practice..

And then tomorrow night go to the movies?

We better.

I had a good night..

Let more like this one lie ahead..

Or I will plague you with a wrath far worse then any might that Rey's ass could conjure

I fucking love you people when you comment..

The more you comment..the more I whack off..so do it more..

Well..maybe not..

But still...

Comment your asses off..I will surely do the same to your journals..

I love you all.

Take heed, dear heart
Once apart, she can touch nor me nor you
Dressed as one
A wolf will betray a lamb

Lead astray the gazers
The razors on your seducing skin
In the meadow of sinful thoughts
Every flower's perfect

Goodnight

Fri, 19 Dec 2003 20:53:13 GMT

Today online I randomly asked people to touch my ass..here are some reactions.

UHvntTastedPain: Touch my ass
crazyorn121: no
crazyorn121: u fag

UHvntTastedPain: Touch my ass
malakia06: sure thing

UHvntTastedPain: Touch my ass
chanjed4life: why?
UHvntTastedPain: For fun
chanjed4life: no
UHvntTastedPain: How about...for..total disgust?
chanjed4life: no

UHvntTastedPain: Touch my ass
RA gin g ox ens: well wee
UHvntTastedPain: Is that a yes?
RA gin g ox ens: well im not quite sure.

UHvntTastedPain: Touch my ass
KillaKisses441: haha uhhh okay

UHvntTastedPain: Touch my ass
ishness16: yeha it was nice

UHvntTastedPain: Dude, touch my ass
RocketRegardless: done
UHvntTastedPain: YES!

I will post more of this nonsense later..noone is on now.

here is some blabbing about my life..

I got my pictures back..they look shitty..

I look all skinny and crookedly demented.

Oh wait..that's how I really look!

I'm not surprised they look bad, they always do.

Anyone want my pictures?

I didn't think so!

Sing me a song of your beauty..

Of your kingdom..

I also got my military test back.

I didn't do bad at all.

I did better then 84% of the school in verbal skills

And better then 93% in word knowledge.

Yes, I do suck ass.

The rest I did better then 50% and up or whatever

But the ones I'm interested in I did best..so I'm fine with it.

Did anyone else even take that?

Or am I the only idiot?

I know Kyle did..he was in the same room as me.

Oh yea, I am getting a digital camera for Christmas..

Once I have that..I will document all the good times my friends and I have..

And I will post it on my journal so you can see..

What kind of idiots..we really are!

You will not be let down!

I will post tonight..

Once I get home..

Going to the mall or something..

Goodfuckingbyemotherfuckingshitniggasinthehoodandshitwhotouchreysthighsandthenwalkupmadphattreesandeatthefuckingcumoutofaniggaskanksmouth.

Fri, 19 Dec 2003 05:10:56 GMT

Yes my loves..if you didn't notice..

I did not attend school today.

I am pretty sick..

I must have the flu shit..I'm not surprised..

I've been on and off sick since summer began.

Mono first and then that wicked cough..

And now the flu shit.

I love it.

I will be their tomorrow..

Today..although sick..I couldn't bare it anymore.

Had Wayne pick me and Kyle up..

We went to Newbury comics real quick..

I bought two Nightwish Cd's I've been looking to grab.

Then we went to AMC to pick up ROTK tickets.

Their next show started at like 8..which was too late kinda.

So we called premiere 8 and they had a show at 7:20

We headed down..got in line..

Bought us tickets..and Sean one also..as he was heading down.

We went in the theatre an hour early just to get good seats.

We waited for Seans arrival..surprisingly saw my mom their and talked with her.

Sean arrived..and we watched away.

Such a beautiful movie..

I can't say precisely how beautiful it is until I see it again.

Which will be Saturday..with a handful of my accomplices.

It is late..and I still haven't found rest..

I care not.

Tomorrow I think I'm taking Rey's bus and we may be going to the mall with Leah and Kyle.

It will be cool.

I love Nightwish with a passion.

Probably my favorite band right now..besides COB of course.

I'm getting a cellphone soon, I promise.

And a place to live..

Coming wicked soon..

I love you all when you comment..do it more.

I try my hardest to comment on all of your journals as well..

And if not yell at me and call me gay.

I'll see you all in school..

I will be the deadtired/sick one..

Ya know? the kid with the ugly face.

Yes! and the emo hair.

Bonds are perishing.

Why so?

I'm not sure.

Ok, seriously I'm leaving now.

Sincerely,

Yesterdayweshookhandsmyfriendtodayamoonbeamlightensmypathmyguardian Disario.

P.S

Yourdeathwillbringmyrest.

(:

Thu, 18 Dec 2003 04:27:48 GMT

My loves!

Return of the King came to theatres last night at midnight.

It is now the next day..and I still have not seen it.

Sad..I know..

Maybe tomorrow?

Sean and Wayne have the day off..so..maybe..

Even though we are supposed to go with Kristen and Courtney this weekend.

I just don't want some idiot to come and tell me what happens before I see it..I would be pissed.

Today hasn't been so awful

Sean drove me home, like a good little boy

Me, him, and Wayne went to Wendy's..

Picked up some skinny kid..

And then Sean dropped us off

We later departed for practice

Practice was ok..

I got some flu shit though..I was tired.

I feel sick still..will be hard to get up tomorrow.

I would write details about practice but I just feel too tired and sick and gay.

Tomorrow I guess we're going to LOTR..probably not though..just doesn't feel like it will happen.

Friday I'm not doing shit yet.

Saturday also..

And also Sunday..

Do any of you care?

I didn't think so

I've been feeling really depressed and goo lately..

I'm missing something from my life..

As if you couldn't guess what it is.

I need to love someone and be loved back at the same time..that would be cool.

It sucks walking around and not having a hand that longs to be held by mine..or boobs that need to be grabbed by me.

Ok ok..I really am trying to be serious.

It is depressing..not trying to be whiney..I just need to get this out.

This is friends only by the way..I am doing it like this from now on..so people will want to be my friends...(:

Yes! I am stupid!

I wish I could write what I really felt in my journal..but people would complain..or something.

I do write mostly what I feel, but I must edit stuff out..ya know?

Someday I will have the balls to write whatever I want, and not care who bitches.

Right now..I would like to kill things in my life.

I can't wait until this period in my life is over.

When I am totally happy, and such.

I know it will come..I just have to be patient

Well, I have bitched far too much for one entry..

Come back again sometime..and comment a shitload..nothing pleases me more then to see people spilling blood on my journal.

Oh yea..I might be getting a cell phone for Christmas.

And a house soon..maybe exit 1?

I am never going to talk to you guys again.

Because I am goo.

No..I'm just stealing lines from people.

Go fuck yourselves....and fuck me while your at it..pllleaaaaaaase?

:end:

Wed, 17 Dec 2003 02:25:05 GMT

People people people..

Today, was a surprise..

I was dead tired afterschool and I really hesitated to go out..

But I'm glad I did..it was wicked fun..

Wayne picked me up..we ate..then went to..

The Kearns' practice..Rey was their.

I played the drums for a bit..god his drumset sucks..

It is all out of tune and such..and his set up is wicked weird.

I miss my drumset...we need to have practice..FOREVER

My dad looked at some apartments today..

He saw one down by the fire station near Holman stadium

and another on Temple street.

They take dogs also..

He said if we wanted we could move in by friday..

Buuttt...they aren't that nice.

I want a house by Christmas..

Not having a place has really torn my Christmas spirit.

Ok..about the rest of my day..

We went to Kristen's house and hung out with her..

It was obviously chaos as usual..

Ya know..ordinary stuff..

people's asses slapped, pants falling, and bodies thrown into the snow at random.

The soundeffects were gorgeous.

Practice tomorrow I hope..although Kyle can't go..

Just me, Rey, and Leo.

I just need to practice my double bassing.

Today was a good day..I like it..

I hope tomorrow is as good..

And I hope I actually have stuff to do on Thursday and Friday..

I like when people point out that they see me at concerts..well, actually, I do.

I must be making a phone call soon..

I will bore you again with this tomorrow, worry not.

Fairwell.

Tue, 16 Dec 2003 03:11:19 GMT

Another day ends..

My days have been so dreary as of late..

My sorrow can be ended, I'm sure.

Just don't know how yet.

I will straighten things someday..

Christmas is coming too soon

I am still not ready..

Vacation can come..but Christmas isn't allowed..

I'm not even excited, how can I be?

I want my cell phone back desperately..

I hate having to fight over the phone..and the computer..

This week I have nothing scheduled..

The movies this weekend with Sean, Courtney, and Kristen..or something?

I dunno.

ROTK comes out Wednesday..I'm psyched.

School tomorrow..ack..I like having days off..

I have to get off..my sister needs to use the phone and then I have to make a call.

I have nothing to do this week.

Save me..Band practice..anything..

Here..some Bodom lyrics...goodbye.

Pick me up from the gutter with a gentle kiss..
That rips up my heart to show me how black it is!

666 Pounder!

A doosh me doosh

Mon, 15 Dec 2003 16:12:58 GMT

Well, friends..

I apologize for the falseness in my past entry..

I reported that the snow would be stopping..but in fact it was a cruel joke towards me. My dad was telling me it had stopped and it was done just to make me mad, so then I put it in my journal, but it was wrong.

And...yes it is a snowday currently..

I love it.

I had faith..after my dad told me he was lying..

Practice today..I'm itching to play the drums..I miss my baby..I haven't seen her in awhile..if you don't know.. I am referring to my drumset..what other baby would I refer to? That's right. None!

I kinda am falling in love with this livejournal stuff. All my friends have it, so it's really convieniant.

I guess we have changed our band name to Angels Bane..although I placed none of my consent..I am not too fond of the name..I liked Midnight Monody and Black Zodiac much better..but what am I gonna do...

Your right! I'm gonna bitch and moan!

No, I'm just kidding..I don't care too much.

Nightwish is so good..

No band (Besides COB) can compare.

and Bal-sagoth

There is no god

Our creed is but for ourselves

Not a hero unless you die

I have to be much more careful with what I say because much more people read this..

You fucking lowly pieces of shit

Hail Satan mother fuckerrrrrrr

Piss on nuns!!!!!!

I raped the virgin mary!

I hung the bastard Christ!

Well, now that I haven't offended anyone.

Piss off.

Mon, 15 Dec 2003 01:30:43 GMT

I have finally Scratched, kicked, and pissed on people to get myself a Livejournal..

Also known as..it was easy as hell thanks to my friend Leah.

I am new to this..and this is my third type of journal..I also have a Xanga and a Blurty..

If you happen to know me..and stumble upon this haven for my bitching..please add me as your friend..I will surely respond and add you as my friend.

And this will not go to waste..I would not take this journal in if I wasn't to use it a lot.

It will be more fixed up later on..

It is snowing out..what a tease..

I thought for sure we weren't going to have school..

But now the snow is stopping..

What a sad event..although I am not resenting the arrival of school too much tomorrow..A day off would be nice though..

Maybe you would like to hear of my weekend?

Well you've come to the right place..

Let's see...

Friday..Didn't do much..went out with Wayne and Sean until late.

Saturday I was supposed to hang out with someone..and then I got ditched..no biggie.

But..Saturday night I went to a Children of Bodom/Dimmu Borgir/Nevermore/Hypocrisy concert..

Beautiful shit..I wrote all about it in my Xanga..

I don't feel like writing it over again in here..

I actually went in the mosh pits and shit though..we all did..so much fun..I got elbowed in the face and punched in the body a few times..but it was well worth it!

Children of Bodom was fucking beautiful..I picked me up a sweatshirt and a long sleeve shirt of theirs..mmmm

As mad as I was about being left behind..I got any anxiety out in the pits.

Beautiful shit..

Today I have been pretty bored..hung out with Sean and Jay for a bit..tomorrow if school is cancelled (and that's a big IF) We will have practice.

Well, enough of my inane dribble...

I am going to go now.

Goodbye.