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My thoughts are all blurred at the moment. Last night was a lot of fun, if I do say so myself. Let me explain..
The night began with us going to Courtney's. (again) It was alright, besides the fact that we were all alone in her house in one room while everyone mingled in the other room. I guess we just aren't that thrilling to be around, which I can understand. So we ended that abruptly as we could have sat in one room and talked to eachother anywhere else. We headed to Sean's where we awaited the ending of his "Family time." They kicked us out eventually and we headed to Wayne's. Noone was home at his house so of course all hell broke loose. We took a lot of good pictures and I am much too tired to put them on. We brought in the New Year this year by all attacking Rey and humping Wayne's dog Joe. Me and Kyle were up until 5ish plotting against Rey and throwing stuff at him. Oh, and I can't forget the Wesley Willis DVD we watched. That was beautiful, and a bit sad at times.
"Hey wats up nuttin juss chillin here. sorry wayne i was talkin to nina and writing emails. i also ate your kit kats and your reeses."
My New Years Resolution?
And remember, don't quote me on this. I may not fall true to some of this, it depends.
First I vow to drive my dad even harder to get us out of this hell. I am going to promise myself that I will find a love before I go insane. That one is far out of my grasps, unfortunately. I'm going to try even harder with the band and try to get us somewhere. Afterall, the band will provide me with a life that could be worth living. The same goes with a love. I also resolve that I will hold myself from destroying any of you that bring me pain of any kind. As much relief that would bring to my mind, you shall all live! How kind of me, don't you think? I'm just messing around, kind of.
None of my past matters right now. It hasn't gotten me anywhere, so why should it? The only thing that matters right now is the band, and someday I will have a girlfriend that will take a big chunk of the importance in my life. That would make all these entries happy, wouldn't that be a change from the dull drear that I ensnare you with here?
This vacation has gotten me nowhere that I wanted to end up. I can't believe it will be soon coming to a screeching halt and I will be imprisoned in the walls of school again.
I hate a lot of people. Is it my fault? Some people just bring it on themselves, the bastards.
Well folks, I'm gone. I am so tired right now and I'm probably going out with my loves soon.
But remember..
Fuck yourselves.
and...I love you. All of you.
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